The wind was chilly, and kept blowing as I walked, and the rain that collected on my skin felt so good as it ran down my face and arms, and cooled further in the wind that broke against me.

I raised my face to the sky as I strolled, and the rain just hit my face, drop by drop, but in quick succession, and it was as if each individual drop took away my pain and slid down me onto the ground, and the wind took me in its embrace. And it did not batter me but caressed me with its chilly breath, stroke by stroke, and I felt the elements so strongly in that instance I wanted to just stand there forever and feel them for all of eternity.

However, I went back home, and found that my left eye had turned red. I guess it's because too much rainwater had irritated it. Actually...not rainwater. More like *acidic* rainwater.

Damn. The downside of walkin' in the rain in an industrailized country...

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

With every breathe, for death I tarry
Each moment draws me closer still.
With every heartbeat the hour calls,
The time will come to go and I will.

Yet death stands far off,
and gazes upon you;
His promise: I will come,
but not now will I move.

And life for me is not but this,
A sign that death is the final aim.
I live for death and lie to life,
And cheat myself in this fancy game.

Are you alone? Or are we all but lies?
Or is everyone living but a dream?
When death comes, we shall embrace it,
and live another "life" it seems.

Death, you beckon with every dawn,
Each sunset sounds like an ominous bell.
Mighty men once stood on this ground,
and turn by turn, every one fell.

And after falling, they were exalted,
both mighty and common alike;
Death is but a gentleman,
who in our company delights.

Ephemeral! I've lost too much to this world,
And soon to time I'll loose it all.
It's a thief it steals my peace away,
Every moment says that all must fall.

Are you certain that all must fall?
Or in falling, all is perceived?
In death, in life, not all is clear,
living in-between both, none is deceived.

So peace I search in your dark embrace,
I know like life you'll never cheat,
You'll take me and you'll never let me go,
Death, your love is infinite.

Mayhap what is viewed as love,
may be obsession of a great degree;
For in love, one should let go,
perceiving which is the greater need.

You'll steal my pain with your cold dark spells,
Your magic like a soothing balm.
You'll bring me peace with your silky touch.
Eternal peace, eternal calm.

What is real need not be stolen,
and what is false, need not be given.
Eternity shall stretch out before thee,
and infinity behind you you'll see.

So death I live for none but you,
I'll live, I'll breathe, my heart will beat.
And wait I will with bated breath.
Till to whence I came from, I retreat.

Living for death, dying for life;
Both hard to understand in my mind;
Yet, sea and streams go on and on,
From whence the rivers come, there they return again.
+switched off@9:33 PM

Monday, September 22, 2003

The air is hot, the sea is cool;
Light curves and bends, and leads
from one land to another,
and ends in a shimmering picture.

Magnified.

One sees the other, and the other gazes back;
Reaches out, but touch only air.
Sees souls fixed upon space,
so near but so empty.

The gulf.

One holds out a hand, the other does too;
Actions spread out into distances, and space
becomes filled. Ether vibrates, driven by
force; waves become particles, and particles: lost.

Mirage.

--Casey Toh--


+switched off@9:56 PM

Saturday, May 17, 2003